So yeah I feel like a totally and utterly idiotic goob. First, off I got my dates went I go back home wrong by a day..I am came home the 12th not the 11th. Which from some reason I should have look up like my first week here but noooooo I have check up on it 3 days(yesterday) before I leave.... now I know I know, I should be beating myself up over this small thing, but you should know me by now.. I am different.. I guess that weakness that I learn to live with.

Now right now I try to get over it.. so basically I few thing that get me over this way. 1. favorite tv show watching( right now it Forever Knight dvds) 2. Music(mostly it either strange music or uplifting music) 3.Try not to curl up and sleep for hours(waking up and not going back to sleep repeatedly)4. Force self to be positive (the thought of most people of do this before you are not the only one) 5.Something happen that changes mood or feeling ( friends, event, etc.)

Well I might delete this later just sort need to type this out, I guess.